Soon To Be, Another Grandchild....

Yesterday, I went to a baby shower given in honor of my youngest son, Todd and his wife, Colleen. They are expecting their third baby, a boy on November 18, 2009. This happens to be my daughter Wendy's' wedding anniversary. If the baby is born on November 19, 2009, he will be born on my wedding anniversary and my Father's birthday.

Daddy Todd, was born on December 1, 1980. At the time, we were living on Whidbey Island, WA. Unfortunately, my Dad died suddenly on February 21, 1981. I was 33. Todd, was never able to meet his Grandfather which has always made me sad. It is so hard for me to believe that so many years have past since my Dad died. He has been in Heaven for almost the same amount of time that he was with me here on earth. By the time our new baby is born, my Dad would have been a great Grandfather for a total of seven times. He loved being a Grandfather to Mark and Wendy. He was an exceptional Grandfather, just like he was an extraordinary Father. My Dad was wonderful. He continues to have my devotion.

I look at my son Todd who will soon be thirty. It seems like yesterday that he was baby. It is hard for me look at him as a father of three. Where did the time go?
I remember when I walked into a room I was always the youngest. Now, more than likely, I am the oldest.

I am not sad to be my age. In fact, I am happy. I am settled. I no longer feel restless or that I am missing something, or.....I am not good enough. Not good enough for what? I was never quite sure, life? Not good enough for the world? Who knows? Even after all of these years I still don't know. I just know that now, I finally fit into my skin. It feels so good and very comfortable.